begin the madness.
so if you've come this far, you're probably at least curious, or maybe just lost. if lost, i encourage you to click the little button that says "blogger" up on the toolbar... it'll get you back where you're comfortable.
if you're curious, i'll start out with something safe enough.
i'm brian, and i'm a born-and-raised californian. my heart belongs to the mountains, where i was born, but my mind belongs to the city, where i live. it makes for some interesting contrasts in the way that i live day-to-day.
i'm a work in progress. i used to think that i had arrived at the top, that i had only a little bit more to go before i could call myself "genuinely me." but the closer i come to my goal of becoming who i was born to be... the further away it seems. i wonder if i'm alone in that experience, or if others are discovering the same thing.
something i've been thinking about a lot lately is the way that people relate, and then more specifally the way that i do. i think that there's an unwritten rule that when you first meet people, you keep most of your genuine personality back and provide a nice and safe face, something which makes you look like the people you're meeting. but as relationships deepen, the room for difference grows--we get past the front to the real, where no two people are ever exactly alike. common ground becomes less important in many ways... after all, does anyone really want to intimately know somebody who's just a clone of his or her self?
here's the difficulty for me--for whatever reason, i like to jump the gun to try and get to know the "real" person, the one behind the mask. i want to skip step 1 and get right to the heart of things. but you've gotta earn the other person's trust--you have to show that you're not totally foreign.
you have to invest in putting up a good show.
it's not a bad thing, it's just a simple safety precaution which almost everyone employs. and the ones who don't... well, they end up getting hurt a lot.
nobody likes to get hurt. so investing time in your face, i think, is a good idea.
easier said than done for some, like me, though.
[eh]
brian
if you're curious, i'll start out with something safe enough.
i'm brian, and i'm a born-and-raised californian. my heart belongs to the mountains, where i was born, but my mind belongs to the city, where i live. it makes for some interesting contrasts in the way that i live day-to-day.
i'm a work in progress. i used to think that i had arrived at the top, that i had only a little bit more to go before i could call myself "genuinely me." but the closer i come to my goal of becoming who i was born to be... the further away it seems. i wonder if i'm alone in that experience, or if others are discovering the same thing.
something i've been thinking about a lot lately is the way that people relate, and then more specifally the way that i do. i think that there's an unwritten rule that when you first meet people, you keep most of your genuine personality back and provide a nice and safe face, something which makes you look like the people you're meeting. but as relationships deepen, the room for difference grows--we get past the front to the real, where no two people are ever exactly alike. common ground becomes less important in many ways... after all, does anyone really want to intimately know somebody who's just a clone of his or her self?
here's the difficulty for me--for whatever reason, i like to jump the gun to try and get to know the "real" person, the one behind the mask. i want to skip step 1 and get right to the heart of things. but you've gotta earn the other person's trust--you have to show that you're not totally foreign.
you have to invest in putting up a good show.
it's not a bad thing, it's just a simple safety precaution which almost everyone employs. and the ones who don't... well, they end up getting hurt a lot.
nobody likes to get hurt. so investing time in your face, i think, is a good idea.
easier said than done for some, like me, though.
[eh]
brian
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